I’m really struggling lately. My beautiful, wonderful, “happiest I’ve ever been in my life” relationship ENDED – harshly, abruptly, and without any real reason.
I’ve been sitting here for weeks on end with a beautiful diamond ring and a head full of WTF?! I don’t even know how to resolve that in my mind…
You were all so kind, and excited for me, when I told you about the engagement – literally just a few short weeks before it ended. 😐 Thank you for that. And for your kind words when it did end. This has been a really (REALLY) hard time.
So what’s a low carb girl to do?
Crawl in bed and eat ice cream, right?
That does seem like the logical answer, doesn’t it? 😛 *sigh* I didn’t though. And I haven’t – and I won’t. As much as I would like to. Instead I’ve been really pushing myself, forcing myself, in a more positive direction.
I’m exercising like a mad woman (I *am* a mad woman), I’ve been getting out and doing new things (feel like it or NOT), and I am eating super healthy – even if I have to force myself to eat. Mostly I’m going through all those motions totally zoned out in a zombie-like state, but that’s okay. It’s better than coming out of this on the other side (someday?) thirty pounds heavier and that much more miserable…
I’m an emotional eater by the way, so this has been especially tough. When I can’t take it anymore (at least once a day), I get up and go pound out 3 miles in 30 short minutes. It’s that or the ice cream. Or worse – like throwing things. 😛
I’m proud of myself. I’m doing all the right things, even if my heart and head aren’t totally into it – I’m doing it anyway. I’ll look back and thank myself for this, I’m sure.
Yesterday was a tough day. One of many. I got up and ate some leftover grilled chicken (zero carbs) then went and had a pedicure. After that I drove into the city and had dinner with a friend.
We ate at Frothy Monkey in downtown Nashville. I had a “build your own salad” and chose fresh spinach with grilled chicken, feta cheese, walnuts, cucumber, avocado and strawberries:
I pulled the strawberries off to the side and ate those for dessert. 🙂 It was a great salad. I was just happy I ate a full meal, and something green. My poor friend- I wasn’t the best company (ack!). That’s a true friend for you, though. She didn’t seem to mind (much) that I stared off into space a lot and wasn’t much fun.
After dinner we went to a book signing event at the Nashville Public Library. The author is Jenny Lawson, a popular blogger that goes by “The Blogess”. She talked about anxiety and depression, and how it’s affected her life. She was hilarious. 🙂 A very serious topic yes, but her delivery made you laugh hysterically… and want to cry, all at the same time.
I bought both of her books while we were there:
Something new to read will do me good.
I had a coffee on the drive home, then stopped at a McDonald’s and bought three sausage patties. Thank goodness for their “all hours breakfast” now! I couldn’t finish all three, but I knew I needed something else on my stomach before I went to bed.
Here’s how my carbs & macronutrients worked out for the day:
Only 14 net carbs. 5,456 steps on my Fitbit. A good day, even on a bad day. I fell asleep tired and sad, and woke up the same way. Hello to another day. One foot in front of the other, with healthy meals and exercise in between…
Best,
Lynn Terry,
aka @LowCarbTraveler
When relationships end without any real reason, it’s always the hardest. But you are not letting it change your goal to be healthy which is the part I’ve always struggled with. Food, carbs in general of course, is always my comfort and I am working so hard to change that. I love to read your posts and admire you for your strength and determination. You will get through this, it will be a struggle for awhile but you will get there. We are all here for you just like you are here to help us make this woe easier. Thanks Lynn for still posting your daily food choices and just being you. You can do this!
You are my hero Lynn! Even when things get tough, you don’t give up! I’m proud of you!
I so admire your honesty and courage to share. You are such a HUGE help to this LCHF community and we need you so much!! I am so happy to see you putting “one foot in front of the other.” You will make it through this and one day, hopefully, smile on the good parts and get a chuckle from the “not so much” parts. Love you bunches!! p.s. Get rid of that ring and buy you something positive for your new future!!
I, too, admire and respect you, Terry, for your honesty, courage and perseverance. Your good choices today will make your life ultimately so much better despite everything you are going through. All of us stand on the sidelines and cheer you on; we are blessed to have you in our lives!
I admire you. I enjoy all your post. I’m sorry about all the blah moments. But soon real soon true love will show up and show out. ♡♡♡
so sorry to hear of your circumstances. A broken heart is the worst. Praying for a little peace in the confusion you must be feeling. Keep doing what you’re doing for you and thanks for all you do for us.
((Tight Hugs)) to you. You are awesome. You are a super hero. We are here for you. I admire you so much for not crawling into bed with a gallon of ice cream. You go, girl. XOXOXOXO.
Thank you 🙂 Your support and kind words really brightened my day yesterday. I’m feeling MUCH better today. Sometimes you just have to make it through the bad days, or at least the bad moments.
Fortunately those bad days are turning more into bad moments, and getting fewer and farther between. 🙂 I will make it through this, just like I always do. It’s been a crazy roller coaster the last three years. I’m SO ready for things to smooth out and go in a better direction! And I aim to MAKE that happen. 😉 *cheers*