I don’t like the term “cheat” in reference to a cheat meal or cheat day. I prefer to call it “eating off plan” as cheating has all kinds of negative vibes attached to it.
Yesterday was my (intentional) off-plan day.
My advice, and what I’m doing myself:
Get right back on track. Eat “lean and green” and stick to real foods and very simple meals for the week following an off-plan meal or day.
Here’s a glimpse into my Thursday, Day 39 of the Low Carb Challenge…
I woke up weighing 148 pounds yesterday. Up from 146.6 the day before. Just your typical fluctuations probably, or muscle inflammation from my workout & big fall the day before. I’m all banged up and sore, lol.
In case you missed it: I wrestled a Great Dane. And I won. 🙂 haha
I started the day with my usual healthy low carb breakfast. I knew I had a high carb meal planned for the evening, but fully intended to eat healthy otherwise.
I went out around lunch, after my morning work, and grabbed a few healthy groceries: berries, cheese, nuts, eggs, bottled water, etc. I wanted to have my low carb staples on hand for the weekend, knowing I would get right back on track.
I totally blew it at lunch.
While I was out, I decided to pick up lunch. I found myself torn. A salad? A low carb chicken club in a lettuce wrap?
I decided to stop at Sonic and go ahead and eat carbs. It was easy to justify – I was going to be out of ketosis by the end of the day anyway. 🙄
Unfortunately that ruined my appetite, AND my desire for carbs. I should have waited for my fun meal that I’d saved up for “dinner & a movie” night. 😛
The movie was great! The food – meh. I lost interest in it. I ate a few bites, maybe 3 ribs and half an order of fries. I normally finish the entire 10 pound box of food (lol), but I just had zero appetite for it at all. I had my few bites and then quit.
My sister is in for a visit, by the way. She got in late last night, and we sat up and had a slice of *** on the back deck while we caught up. I picked up the *** when I got dinner, thinking I’d really go all out – haha. She eats low carb as well, and also gluten free, so that was a big splurge for us both. 🙂
I’m really over the food thing – carbs and sugar I mean.
It didn’t taste as good as it sounded, or even looked, and I kind of just picked at it. It wasn’t at all the love affair and romantic reunion I expected it to be. 😛 Even the slice of *** took me almost an hour of just nibbling at it.
This morning I weighed 150.2 pounds – which is a 2.2 pound gain from the day before. I’m okay with that. I expected it to be worse. 😛 Back to ketosis, back to healthy foods and healthy feelings… now fully aware that I am not the least bit interested in foods I once thought I could not live without.
I chose this picture to share with you today because turtles have a lot of symbolism: trusting your inner vision, finding inner wisdom. They symbolize journeys, protection, pace and patience.
This turtle sits on my back deck. I looked at it as I had my first coffee this morning, thinking back over my decision to eat off plan, and my resolve to get right back on my health journey. I processed how I felt about it, what I expected vs what I experienced, and how great it felt to STILL be on my path this morning.
What did I learn?
I have absolutely NO desire to be who I used to be.
The love/hate relationship I once had with food is over. The affair has ended.
Sometimes you have to go back for just one more taste… to truly know that for sure.
I don’t feel bad about it. I don’t have “food guilt.” I am not mad at myself. It was an interesting experience, especially given it was a FIRST. It felt GOOD not to completely binge, or even want to, and most of all… to realize I have changed. It took me such a LONG time to get here, and it’s a very happy place. 🙂
Was it worth it?
No and Yes. No the food wasn’t worth it. It certainly wasn’t worth having to go back through keto flu in a few days. But yes because now I know I am OFF the roller coaster – for good. I have struggled with that for more than 5 years of eating low carb, falling off track, struggling to stay on track, gaining and losing the same 20 pounds over and over and over.
Getting serious, getting committed, and sticking to my “20 net” for 38 straight days really changed things for me. I powered through cravings, stress, emotional days, temptations… and it was SO worth it. I really like where I am now because I pushed myself through the hard parts. Now I know I can power through, I know I’m stronger than that, and I know the foods are never as good as they sound.
It feels GREAT to be back to my happy foods today!
I have no desire to do that again.
I’m not saying I’ll never ever ever eat another cookie in my entire life. I’m saying… binging is not fun anymore. I’m not sure it ever was. I’m saying I love the healthy foods I eat now, and I don’t love the junk I used to eat.
I think I’m telling you (and myself) that I have finally accepted the new me. 🙂
I’ve had a fabulous (healthy!) day with my sister so far today. We are eating healthy, went for a walk in town, then hiked a waterfall this afternoon. I’ll share the photos and foods we enjoyed today with you in my next post. 🙂
p.s. This was a personal test that I felt I needed to go through. I do NOT recommend carb cycling, and I don’t recommend eating off plan if you don’t feel strong enough to get right back on track. It’s too easy to gain all of your weight back, and waste all the time you’ve put into getting where you are today. I needed to KNOW I was completely over it. I got that sense of closure I needed, and I feel that’s just going to make me stronger as I continue forward…