I decided not to go to Atlanta this week after all. You know how much I love to travel – and I do! 🙂 – but I’ve really been on the go a lot lately and I decided I need the downtime.
Sometimes you have to stop and analyze, and make smart choices. My big goal in life is to become the healthiest, happiest version of myself that I can be.
I came home from Vegas with a virus. That was nasty! I came home from Orlando with a cough. The idea of being around 500 more (germy) people again this weekend didn’t seem like a bright idea. lol.
On top of that, I was feeling a little stressed last night. Nothing major, just lying in bed unable to sleep with a million things running through my mind.
Like the fact that I need to UNpack my Orlando bags to pack for my Atlanta trip. 😛
I took a deep breath and decided to call it off. Relax, I said to myself. Let go. I got up and outlined my highest priorities – work deadlines, personal goals, etc – and made the decision to stay home, stay focused, and baby this lovely cough I was gifted with.
That reminds me… I went to the doctor recently for a full workup and got a big fat A+ 🙂 🙂
My kidneys, my blood sugar levels, cholesterol, thyroid, you name it – all perfect. 🙂 Yay! Not bad for almost 43 years old, right?!
I feel very fortunate for good health, silly viral nonsense this season aside, and very glad I started eating a healthy ketogenic diet five years ago!
In other news, I’m down a bra size (or two). 😐 lol…
I AM DETERMINED!
There were two things working against me today. First, with the trip off the plate I no longer have this strong incentive to lose a few more pounds and fit into some super cute new dresses this weekend. I can lounge in my comfies, which accommodate practically any weight. 🙂 lol.
Second, I am 152.8 pounds. Less than three pounds from being back below 150 (goal!). Every time I get super close to my goal… I tend to self sabotage.
Why?! Because I’m human. 😛 Fear of success maybe. Being more comfortable “always losing” than facing the uncomfortable: Who am I at my goal? What IS my goal? “Let’s just avoid that a little longer…”
I refuse to give in to that mental battle. It’s a TOUGH one, believe me. I know you do – you probably have some of the same conversations in your own head, right? 😉
I ended up eating an Atkins Bar instead of a candy bar today. I forced myself to get up and go for a walk, even though I didn’t feel like it. Then I MADE myself cook a healthy low carb dinner instead of going out to indulge on what I REALLY wanted.
Today was a success – one meal at a time, one choice at a time.
Speaking of new dresses, do you want to see one of them? 🙂 Since I’m not going to be “seen” this weekend, I’ll show it off here. I got this one on Amazon too:
Ice cream will NOT fit in that dress. 😛 lol…
View the dress on Amazon It’s a GREAT dress. I lack a few pounds wearing it *comfortably* but I’m really into the retro look lately!!
I once had someone tell me (in a comment on Facebook): If I looked like you, I’d eat anything I want! Er, yeah. 😐 I wish I could. I really do.
My weight loss journey has been a TOUGH one, and it’s STILL a constant struggle. I have to work HARD just to maintain my weight – much less continue to lose.
Then there’s the fact that I’m sucking in and wearing serious undergarments to hold things together under my new dresses, lol. I have A LOT of toning to do.
I want to meet this “happiest, healthiest version of myself”. I want to see what that FEELS like. And so for one more day, I chose to eat low carb and exercise. (Blah, lol) Again, it’s one choice at a time. We just have to keep making the healthy choices…
I’ve lost 4 pounds this week so far, and I am not about to undo all of that hard work. I’m tired of feeling discouraged, disgusted or disappointed. I think forward to how I’m going to feel in a bathing suit in a few short months. Or what if I have a hot date out of the blue?! 🙂 haha. *sigh*
I know it’s tough. I’m right there with you. I’ve been at this for FIVE years, and still haven’t achieved what should have been SO easy. I am not giving up. I am determined. Every single day I am going to wake up and decide to BE HEALTHY.
Are you with me? 🙂
Someday (very very soon I hope!) I will show you some shocking before and after pictures of my amazing transformation. Soon, because I’m still working on that “amazing transformation” part – lol.
I’m off to do a quick arm workout, in my quest to see if there’s any real hope for “armpit tits” and “batwings” in your 40’s… 😛 I’ll let you know!! *cheers*
I know they don’t show that much in the picture above, but that’s because I’ve learned to hold my arm very strategically for photos 😉 haha.