So did MyFitnessPal when it yelled at me for not eating enough calories, lol.
That brings up a great topic though, about Intermittent Fasting (or fasting in general) which is a HOT topic in low carb communities.
Many people see great success with fasting, and I say to each their own!
It’s all about what works best for YOU. Personally, dieting and fasting makes me feel deprived, which puts me in a mental panic and makes me want to binge. 😛
Dieting (of any kind) backfires on me every single time.
Eating low carb I can do. Fasting and dieting… I cannot do – successfully.
There’s another side to this though, and it’s about knowing your issues. We all have them. I don’t think I even realized what my issues were exactly, until I hit bottom “doing the low carb diet” and realized the problem was deeper than food.
The problem was WHY. Not what I ate or how I ate, but my overall relationship with food – as it relates to my “issues.”
This really hit home when I realized I was lean and healthy most of my life, until a certain point. I blamed age, I blamed hormones, I blamed the tumor that forced me to have a hysterectomy and threw my whole body out of whack. I blamed circumstances and situations (and the people that caused them).
I looked for answers in all those places because I used to eat macaroni and cheese and wear a size 3, and later a much healthier size 6/8.
At some point my focus shifted…
I cannot put my finger on when that was or what happened exactly, or why I turned to food for “entertainment” & fulfillment. What fulfilled me before? I still don’t know the answer to that. My life has been lonely and hard and full of stress all along.
How This Relates To Fasting, Or Not Eating Enough
I should get to the point. I have to work today, and I bet you have a full day too. 🙂
The first point I want to make is this one:
Scales don’t have feelings. Neither does food.
You can’t spite them. They don’t care how you feel or what you think of them. You can cuss your scales and go eat donuts, but your scales are just going to sit there just the same. The donuts don’t love you. They don’t care if you hate them.
Applying all of these feelings to inanimate objects, or allowing ourselves to react emotionally to them, is where the problem lies.
Reacting vs Acting – that’s what it’s all about. We can respond and react to everything around us, allowing it to control our emotions and decisions. Or we can Act like healthy, responsible adults.
Wow, that sounds so simple and so logical, doesn’t it? 🙂 lol…
Healthy, responsible adults take deliberate actions and make deliberate decisions that are in their best interest.
This is why I do not do Intermittent Fasting, or any kind of fasting. I’ve had “food issues” (dare we say, Eating Disorders) in the past including: bulimia, anorexia, binge eating & emotional overeating.
I’m officially embarrassed. 😳
All of those eating disorders are a type of CONTROL. A means of having some little bit of control in what seems like an otherwise crazy and chaotic world (even if that is just your own little world in your own little mind).
I have a new kind of control now. I’m in control of my life, my health, and my future. I’m taking care of myself and improving myself both mentally and physically, with amazing results (vs really BAD results with the other methods, lol).
I make intentional choices, I eat healthy foods, I exercise, and I’m continuing to eliminate bad things and add in new good things. (I’m not perfect. It’s still a process.)
I caught myself.
Like most things, it snuck up on me. But I realized one day I had BEAT the binge eating and emotional overeating. The things I used to do when I felt sad, mad, lonely, depressed or all of the above at once. I did beat it. I no longer eat for comfort or entertainment or fulfillment. But I caught myself NOT eating when I felt down. 🙁
I refuse to have a relationship with food, of any kind. WE ARE BREAKING UP, me and food. I will not pine over it, adore it, punish it. If you’ve ever read the warning signs of an unhealthy relationship, try applying those points to your relationship with food.
That’s eye opening.
Yesterday I didn’t eat enough. I don’t feel like I exercised enough either. Not enough to reach my goals anyway. If I want to get in GREAT shape I’m going to need to do some SERIOUS toning. I need to GET serious.
Those were the thoughts running through my mind last night. I really just wanted to run to the Sonic Drive-In for an old favorite. I don’t know what sparked all of these thoughts & emotions (yes I do)… but I just went to bed at 8pm, without dinner, shut the world out… and went to sleep.
I got up and checked the scales this morning to see if I’d lost any weight. NOPE. I stepped off and back on again. NOPE.
This is NOT a good mindset, not a good “reaction” or response to things that are going on in my life right now, and this is NOT a place I want to come back around to.
I don’t want to be that person that eats too much or doesn’t eat enough (on purpose), or looks to the scales for approval. Meaning: I don’t want to be that version of ME, again. I’ve come way too far for that.
I beat that. You’ve seen me stay on track no matter what, for months on end, just because it FEELS GOOD and because it’s healthy. Because I’M healthy now.
Before you comment that I’m being too hard on myself, or overthinking it, I’m not. I didn’t feel like eating last night, I went to bed hungry (and sad), and that was yesterday – it’s done.
I only shared all of this in detail with you because it’s my explanation for why I don’t do fasting or dieting. I just want to eat healthy and be healthy – period.
I promised to share my daily food & exercise diaries here with you, but sometimes I hesitate… or feel embarrassed. Sometimes I eat lazy or just snack on low carb foods throughout the day because it’s easy.
Sometimes I don’t feel like “cooking for one” – because it reminds me that I’m cooking for ONE. Sometimes I just want to eat my food in private, lol.
Tuesday’s Low Carb Meals
I didn’t eat breakfast until 11am. Or I skipped breakfast and had an early lunch, however you want to call it. I had work to do early, then an appointment at 9:30.
After that I got “breakfast” at McDonald’s. I love that they have all day breakfast now. 🙂 I simply ordered “2 sausage and 2 round fried eggs please” ($3.49).
Sometime later in the afternoon or early evening I had my favorite healthy low carb meal. It’s easy, delicious, GREAT foods – and requires NO cooking. 🙂
It’s 1/2 cup pecans, 1/4 cup Daisy brand cottage cheese, 4 small diced strawberries and 17.5 grams of hand-picked blueberries. (6 net carbs and 85% healthy fat)
And that’s all I ate…
Here’s My MyFitnessPal Diary for Tuesday:
Net Carbs: 12
Total Carbs: 20
Protein: 48 Grams
81% Fat, 15% Protein
Exercise: Brisk Walk, 1.26 Miles
Fitbit Steps: 5,032
Water: 48 ounces
Here’s a sweaty selfie with my great dane, Slim on our quick walk yesterday. 🙂
We did the same walk as the day before, 15 minutes faster!
I’ve been at “this low carb thing” for more than 5 years now.
I started in the Spring of 2011, and in all honestly I just wanted to lose weight when I started. That was my only goal. I had NO idea where this journey would end up taking me, or that I’d still be eating low carb and LOVING it more than 5 years later.
I’m proud of myself for overcoming some BIG issues, and for becoming aware of them to the point that I can spot them quickly now and say NO. I’m really pleased with how far I’ve come and how much I’ve changed, and happy with the direction I’m going.
I wish I had realized from the start that this was never even about losing weight.
Weight loss was simply the RESULT.
Sorry to carry on so much, lol. Over to you…
Your Turn! How are YOU doing?
How are you doing with your low carb meals & daily exercise? Any questions or struggles with your weight loss journey?
I would love to hear what you ate yesterday, and what exercise you chose to do. 🙂
Leave a comment and let’s talk!
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